The long wait is almost over! Well, it hasn’t been that long, but two weeks is still a long time! My lover gets to come home on Monday morning for the week.
In the past, I’ve given hints, sent articles, chatted with him online about many aspects of the spanking life for us. Sometimes he gets around to it, but most times he doesn’t.
This time, I’ve decided not to mention it at all, and over the past two weeks he’s been away, I haven’t mentioned it or given any indication that I need it. It will be interesting to see if he comes up with a session all on his own - or if he will think I've finally given up on it.
I was too disappointed last time to even have much hope for this next trip, but the old saying that “hope springs eternal” is appropriate here. I have to admit that I’ve been a bit down about it all – worrying that I’m the one with the problem and that we have a great relationship that I’m screwing up with my “need.”
Part of the problem for us is that there is always so much work to be done to catch up on what we didn’t accomplish last time. I do a lot of it between times, but I never get it all done, and certainly not the work that requires his heavy lifting ability or that the two of us need to do together. Farm work is always beckoning!
Of course (giggle), farm work also involves a lot of equipment that makes for excellent spanking devices. Now, if I can just get his mind off one use and onto another . . .
I’m afraid he thinks I’m just being silly about this most of the time. Any suggestions on how to let him know I’m really serious about this and not just being coy?
Okay – it’s time to go feed my chickens!
PW - Spanking - the complete woman’s stress reliever
Saturday, January 31, 2009
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Saturday, January 17, 2009
Gratitude for Fantasies!
I love to write fantasies, I love to read the fantasies of others, and I love to act them out, whether with my lover or alone. Acting out a fantasy alone can be better than the real thing sometimes, especially when the other person involved may not have the same concept as the scene being acted out in my brain.
One of my favorite fantasies has always been to role-play Daddy/little girl scenes. This has nothing to do with real children, of course, but with a mental fantasy trip back to the time when I had no responsibilities, when Daddy took care of all my problems, made me accountable, and loved me unconditionally.
It is so easy for me to get into the mind-set of a little girl, loving her Daddy more than life itself, knowing I’ve disappointed him, knowing he will put me over his lap and take down my panties, always saying it would hurt him more than me, anticipating that most intimate of touches – a spanking.
As I write that, I can feel an orgasm building, which helps to prove how much of what we desire is mental. And as I write, the gut churning, vagina tingling, anus puckering, rapid breathing, muscle twitching takes over, and before I know it, I’ll be over the edge – at least once.
Listening to a recording of Andrea Bocelli as I write doesn’t hurt the fantasy setting, especially “Go Where Love Goes,” the duet he sings with Holly Stell. At the time he recorded this with her (about 4 or 5 years ago) she was an 11-year-old prodigy vocalist. All sorts of fantasies stimulate my mind.
So today, the air is filled with rain, my heart with joy for my lover’s visit last week, anticipation for his next visit in two weeks, and that overwhelming desire to be over his lap like a little girl. He doesn’t like that image at all, so I simply go there in my head.
Is it enough?
Purple Woman - "A woman is never too old to be spanked by someone who loves her."
One of my favorite fantasies has always been to role-play Daddy/little girl scenes. This has nothing to do with real children, of course, but with a mental fantasy trip back to the time when I had no responsibilities, when Daddy took care of all my problems, made me accountable, and loved me unconditionally.
It is so easy for me to get into the mind-set of a little girl, loving her Daddy more than life itself, knowing I’ve disappointed him, knowing he will put me over his lap and take down my panties, always saying it would hurt him more than me, anticipating that most intimate of touches – a spanking.
As I write that, I can feel an orgasm building, which helps to prove how much of what we desire is mental. And as I write, the gut churning, vagina tingling, anus puckering, rapid breathing, muscle twitching takes over, and before I know it, I’ll be over the edge – at least once.
Listening to a recording of Andrea Bocelli as I write doesn’t hurt the fantasy setting, especially “Go Where Love Goes,” the duet he sings with Holly Stell. At the time he recorded this with her (about 4 or 5 years ago) she was an 11-year-old prodigy vocalist. All sorts of fantasies stimulate my mind.
So today, the air is filled with rain, my heart with joy for my lover’s visit last week, anticipation for his next visit in two weeks, and that overwhelming desire to be over his lap like a little girl. He doesn’t like that image at all, so I simply go there in my head.
Is it enough?
Purple Woman - "A woman is never too old to be spanked by someone who loves her."
Friday, January 16, 2009
Still Waiting!
It was wonderful just to have him here for four days, but he was still a bit under the weather. He made some promises, but never followed through. He’ll be back in a couple of weeks and we’ll try again.
I started this with the intent to describe my feelings around spanking, but I’m not sure how to express disappointment. Like many of you, I have a love/hate relationship with a hard spanking, and yet something is definitely missing in my life when I don’t get one. The discouragement builds up to the point where I’m a dam just waiting to burst.
It’s too easy to pretend it doesn’t matter, isn’t it? What is there about such a child-like act that appeals to so many of us adult women (and some men)?
Still, I am more concerned about his health than about my own needs, so I can just hope he is healed in another two weeks so we can move forward. I think he keeps hoping I’ll get over it. There is no getting over this, I’m afraid – so I just ignore it.
Purple Woman - the sweetest words in the world can be "You are going to get a spanking when we get home, young lady!"
I started this with the intent to describe my feelings around spanking, but I’m not sure how to express disappointment. Like many of you, I have a love/hate relationship with a hard spanking, and yet something is definitely missing in my life when I don’t get one. The discouragement builds up to the point where I’m a dam just waiting to burst.
It’s too easy to pretend it doesn’t matter, isn’t it? What is there about such a child-like act that appeals to so many of us adult women (and some men)?
Still, I am more concerned about his health than about my own needs, so I can just hope he is healed in another two weeks so we can move forward. I think he keeps hoping I’ll get over it. There is no getting over this, I’m afraid – so I just ignore it.
Purple Woman - the sweetest words in the world can be "You are going to get a spanking when we get home, young lady!"
Friday, January 9, 2009
Preparation
Ever since New Year’s Day I’ve been busy getting ready for my honey’s visit next week. He’s been sick, so I don’t know if we’ll do much playing or not. How do you handle it when the response from your S.O. is less than enthusiastic about your needs?
Sometimes I feel like just letting it go. Whether or not we have a spanking relationship is not as important as his presence, but it would be wonderful to have it all, wouldn’t it?
I won’t let it go.
Purple Woman - "Capture my mind, own my body"
Sometimes I feel like just letting it go. Whether or not we have a spanking relationship is not as important as his presence, but it would be wonderful to have it all, wouldn’t it?
I won’t let it go.
Purple Woman - "Capture my mind, own my body"
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