NaNoWriMo - WON!

I actually finished around 52,000 words by the end of week 3, so I was happy girl!

My story is of a conservative theology professor in an ultra-conservative college. He has a public debate with a liberal Feminist theologian, and of course sparks fly - and not the good kind!

Their story follows a circuitous path, and she ultimately ends up being married to him as a submissive wife who gets spanked regularly. She had a hard time reconciling it with her feminism, but realizes that as a feminist, she can choose how she wants to be in relationship.

They become involved with another couple who are in the same kind of relationship (a female Protestant minister and a police chief), and they ultimately buy property together (about ten acres) so that they are legally bound in a four-way marriage of sorts.

In the process of all this happening, the four of them end up in Druidism and Pagan rituals, finding it more to their theological mindsets.

Lots of spanking goes on among the four people, and eventually others are added to their Druid Grove, all with the same ideas about Domestic Discipline.

Fun and games for all, and many sore bums are seen around the acreage!

PW

"Up with feminism, down with panties"

NaNoWriMo

I take part in this every year, and write enough words to be considered a "winner!"

Here is my problem - I start out a novel with a nice "normal" outline, and somewhere along the line, it simply gets into spanking, or domestic discipline, or some variation that involves kinky, but highly desirable behavior.

I give up! That kind of book must be what I am destined to write. I have honestly tried to write something different that I wouldn't be embarrassed for my children to know I wrote, but it just isn't going to happen.

In every situation I write about, I can see the female main character being submissive to the male character, almost always ending up over his lap for a sound spanking, or any number of other kinky scenarios.

I have started writing under a pen name (not the one I use for this blog), and publishers have shown an interest. There must be a market for my kind of novel somewhere. If I get published, I'll let you know :)

CLMcK

Spanking on my mind!

I began this blog in December 2008, then there was one year (2009) that I wrote on this blog regularly - almost every week. I'm not sure whether or not it was a time when I was getting spanked regularly, too. If so, that may be why I wrote more.

It's been too long since I was turned over someone's knee for a good hard spanking. I happen to believe that you're never too old for a spanking, but is there a possibility that the spanker gets old and tired before the spankee?

I can't say I'll write regularly on here again, but I hope to do that. I think everyone who used to read my posts have given up and are around no longer. I hope they come back and give me some encouragement.

In response to the saying that "you're never too old for a spanking," I'd like to say that "even (old) girls need spanking now and then."

Ideas??

PW - "Kinky" is a relative concept.

Age-old dilemma

My S.O. used to spank me regularly. Then he became nervous about it because he considers it abuse. I know this is not a new topic, but DAMN, how can a woman convince her lover that she feels abused when she is NOT spanked?!

Anyone able to solve this dilemma? How did you do it? It's been about a year since I was spanked and I need it.

PW ~ Up with feminism, down with panties!

Maybe I'm back - after so long!

I'm surprised they still let me in here to get back to blogging!

Since it's been so long, I won't write much today, but just wanted to let those who knew about me a few years ago that I'm back in the saddle (so to speak).

PW - You're never too old to get spanked!

Update

I spent time with my S.O. over the holidays. After his accident, he is slowly recovering, but the nerve damage to his arm will take time. Several of you have written to express concern, and for that, I sincerely thank you! It's easy to feel all alone out here in the blogosphere!

PW - Submitting to him is my own decision.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

We have a brand spanking new year coming up!
I hope everyone gets all the spankings they want
and as many as they deserve!

One of my goals for 2010 is to refocus the content.

I don't want this to be just about my own spanking adventures,
but to include other people who have spanking needs.

Do you need to cry?
Do you need to vent?
Do you need suggestions?
Do you need to celebrate?

As a psychologist who is also a spankophile, I want to listen to my readers, so tell me what you would like to see on here.

PW ~ Spanking - the complete woman’s stress reliever

Bocelli

Does anyone get the same shiver I do when I listen to Andrea Bocelli's new Christmas album? His rendition of "Santa Claus Is Coming To Town" starts out with a slow, sexy "You'd better watch out..." that sends me over the edge!

I'm just sayin' . . .

PW The strong, dominant man makes my knees weak, sets my heart fluttering, and turns my insides to jelly.

Accident Update!

It’s been almost four weeks since someone ran into my lover (he was the pedestrian).

He is slowly healing and will be leaving the rehab facility in a couple weeks and I’ll be flying over to see him. It was touch-and-go for a while, but he is beginning to seem like his old self.

I’ve been thinking about his last visit, just before his accident. The spanking was good, the sex was good, the companionship was good, and I miss it all. Fortunately, the arm that was injured was not his dominant arm!

What I realized, however, is that he won’t be able to hold me still on his lap with his non-dominant arm!

Now isn’t that a shame??

PW - "Capture my mind, own my body"

Accidents Happen!

I've been quiet on here for the past few months, but mostly because my teaching schedule is heavy this semester. With the downturn in economy, many people are returning to college to further their education and my classes are over-full. Next semester may be better.

I want to tell my followers that my S.O. was hit by a Speedi-shuttle at the airport last week and has been in the hospital ever since. He's not in good shape at all, although he is slowly starting to heal. He was knocked unconscious and rolled several times. My heart is heavy for his pain, and I ask all prayers and thoughts of healing to be sent his way.

I'll be back - and so will he!

PW - Submitting to him is my choice.

The New Wife

Here's a little story I wrote about 15 years ago. It was my fantasy of how I hoped my second marriage might turn out. It did not, and that’s all right. I ended the marriage and moved on, but the fantasy was quite good!
* * * * *
Angel had only been married to her husband, Sam, for a few short months. When he went to work in his tweed sport coat and brown wool trousers, she loved to rub her face against the rough tweed! She loved to have him cuddle her when he wore that jacket.

The marriage ceremony had made their relationship legal, but something was missing. She missed Sam being around when he went off to work, yet when he came home, she still felt unfulfilled. So Angel spent her days dreaming of the ways she could seduce him when he got home.

Up until that point, their sex life had been semi ordinary. She had been afraid to tell him that she would like more variety and that she liked to fantasize about having a different kind of sex with him. But she knew something needed to be done to change their new relationship or she would become bored with marriage again and leave him. She didn't want to do that, so she made plans.

Once, when Sam was out of town on business, she became extremely aroused thinking about what she wanted from him when he returned. Her gut got that funny feeling it gets when she is excrutiatingly horny. Her pussy tingled just thinking about how he would put her over his lap to spank her.

It seemed he would never get back from his trip. He called and said he had been delayed, and would be home shortly. But he was too tired when he got home and went to bed for a short nap before he went to a business meeting. Now the question for her became WHEN?

One evening after work, he unlocked the front door and walked into the hallway as he usually did. Angel greeted him wearing a very short black and white gingham dress with eyelet on the puffed sleeves. There was a bright pink sash tied into a bow around her waist. She also had on anklets and little black pumps. Her long hair was pulled up into two pigtails with ribbons on the ends. Under her dress was a pair of flowered silk bikini panties. She knew Sam would love her, even though he was shocked to see her dressed this way for him. She noticed that he was a bit taken aback by it all.

Angel took his hand and led him into the dining room where she had fixed him a cup of coffee. She took off his shoes and helped him get comfortable, chatting with him about his day at work. Then she sat on his lap and put her arms around his neck, wiggling against his crotch ever so slightly. She felt him becoming aroused and squirmed even more. She guided his hand so it went to her knee, then under her skirt.

Of course, it didn't take him long to figure out what she wanted him to do. He ran his hand up her leg to where her panties started and began to tease her pussy. She opened her legs a bit more so he could put a finger inside her panties. She snuggled down onto his finger. How she loved him!

She kissed him with wet lips and put her tongue on his, then whispered into his ear, "I've been a terribly naughty girl today while you were at work."

Sam was shocked!

"What did you do, Angel? Was it naughty enough that you need to be spanked?"

Her heart jumped in her breast. This was just what she had wanted all along.

"Oh, yes! I didn't do anything I was supposed to do here at home. I was lazy all day, just read and watched TV. I didn't clean house or prepare your dinner. I've been so naughty."

"Then stand up right now! I won't have my wife behaving that way every day. I should have known something was up when you were so coy with me."

Angel stood up, head lowered. Sam pulled up her skirt and made her hold it while he pulled down her panties, then bent her over his lap. The feel of wool against her face was wonderful! That was just what she had craved!

For a moment, she forgot what he was about to do, as she thought about how cute she must look there over his knees with her panties down and her skirt around her waist. She knew how much he loved her bare bottom. Tenderly, he patted it a few minutes, then suddenly smacked his hand down hard against her bare cheeks.

"Ouch! That hurts!"

“Of course it hurts, you silly girl! It’s supposed to.”

Angel clutched the leg of his wool trousers that she loved so much and steeled herself for the next swat.

"You must be punished for being the naughty little girl you know you've been. Now be still while I finish this. I think this is what you've been needing for a long time. Maybe it's even what you've been wanting."

Angel wiggled and squirmed around, trying to avoid the harsh spanking, but she knew she had it coming! She jumped from the sharp sting. She began to cry. Why had she wanted something that hurt so badly?

"Oh, please, Sam, please stop! Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeze!”

"You know this is what you deserve. Keep your hands away from your bottom, or they will get smacked, too."

Suddenly, Angel felt herself moving into a trance, letting go of her ego, giving into the punishment, releasing control of herself, handing control to her Husband, to her Lover. It felt so good to let him take charge of her body in this way. From that point on, he would make the decisions, totally care for her and discipline her.

It was at that moment that he truly became her Husband, her Master, the one to whom she would forever submit, the only person who could control her. She was finally free to be who she was - his loving and submissive wife! Why hadn't she let him do this before? Why had she waited so long to let him know what she wanted? With this new relationship, she would be his forever.

Addendum

Just for fun, I checked my library to see if they have the book Hermione read by Johanna Lindsey (Man of My Dreams). I have never read a romance novel in my life (honest!) - I think they would make me gag! But if this one gets close to a spanking scene, then I wanted to read it. Maybe that's the incentive I need. I'll check out the publisher and send in something (maybe).

PW - “As both a good horse and a bad horse heed the spur, so both a good woman and a bad woman need the stick.” (Italian proverb)

Time Flies!

I didn’t realize it had been two weeks since my last post. It’s so easy to get caught up in “real life,” but that’s not all bad, is it?

Summer with no classes to teach leaves me with more time to garden, read good books, and fantasize! (giggle)

My SO and I have been together for almost five years, and I have to admit that my fantasizing has been less since he’s been in my life. No other lover has left me as satisfied as he does, and thus I always had that craving that wasn’t fulfilled.

That doesn’t mean I don’t fantasize at all anymore! Oh, no! It’s just that my fantasies are no longer what I do to reach a climax. Now they are just sexy stories I write or think about to pass the time away on a lazy summer afternoon.

The summer temperatures here never get much above 80 degrees, but a tall glass of iced green tea is still a delight. I remember having that in Japan one summer back in the mid-60s and it’s been my “refresher” ever since.

My post doesn’t have a theme this week, so I thought I’d share some of my summer fun with you. I just finished reading Shanghai Girls by Lisa See. If you haven’t read it, please do. It is one of the best fictionalized versions of Chinese history between the mid-30s and today. Maybe it’s because I lived in California during some of the years this book spans, but I couldn’t put it down.

I’ve also been reading The Fire, the sequel to Kathryn Neville’s The Eight. I recommend that you start with The Eight and then go to The Fire. She has written two other books that you probably would find intriguing – The Magic Circle and Calculated Risk. Her books all integrate at least three eras in ways you would least suspect. She writes the way I’d like to write!

I’ve written several novels but I've never sent them in to see if they are publishable. The problem is that no matter what I write, the subject matter always seems to migrate towards kinky sex! Now what does that say about me?? I’m sure no publisher would accept my kind of writing. Even my murder mysteries end up in sexual scenes.

What are you reading this summer?

PW - 'Kinky' is a relative concept.

Amusement

I started this blog in mid-December, 2008, as a Christmas gift to myself. That was seven months ago. It was a worthy amusement for a lonely time. So much was on my mind then, including the depressing fact that I could not be with my S.O. over the holidays. Writing about my love of and need for spankings helped me get through a rough period.

As Grace said, on “a day in the life,” we all need time away from our blogs. After a brave start that December day, I slowed down. Not because I lost interest, but because it seemed like nothing exciting was happening. I still have the fantasies, I still look forward to being over his lap, now that his knee is healing. Perhaps my “down time” was in sympathy with his “down time.”

To be honest, I’m not sure what I’m trying to accomplish with this blog, other than it gives me a place to express my frustration, to feel a part of the spanking community in some small way, and perhaps figure out this need we all seem to have.

Sometimes I wonder if the desire is only on my side of the relationship, or if he looks forward to it as much as I do? He says he loves it, but fears going too far. Perhaps the men in this community can help by telling me how they got past that anxious feeling. I can pass those ideas on to him and perhaps alleviate his fears a bit.

I am a counselor, and I have had clients who were seriously abused, so I know the difference. There is nothing consensual or fun about it for these women. I have helped many of them get away from that life. But my S.O. would never abuse me in that way, nor would I ever consider it to be abuse.

On the other hand, when he does spank me, I never feel like he goes far enough. He stops too soon, even though in that moment, I am happy for him to stop. Almost as soon as he quits, I wish he hadn’t. How can I expect him to know what I want if I don’t know myself?

Ah, well. . . he’ll be here next week and we’ll see what happens. Hang in there with me, gang, and I’ll be back to share a fantasy or two before long.

PW - Be willing to say "Because I said so."

Back to Reality!

Reality?? What’s that? Sometimes I wonder if there is any such thing – but then I honestly do believe that everything has the possibility of becoming reality if it isn’t already, including our fondest fantasies. Napoleon Hill tells us that “whatever the mind can conceive and believe, it can achieve.” In other words, whatever our minds can dream up, we can make into a reality.

Of course, we all know that not everything we dream up should become reality, but it’s fun to think about it anyway, isn’t it? One of my fantasies recently came true, and it was worth every second of it. Needless to say, it gave me a taste of what my life could be if we were together permanently.

Early May I said that my SO was going to have knee surgery in California. I just got back from spending several glorious weeks with him while he recovered. This is the fantasy that I’m referring to. Only twice in the past five years we’ve been partners have we been able to have several weeks of uninterrupted time together.

His recovery has been miraculous!

Besides getting to be with him for so long, it was a relief to be away from the normal routines of teaching, taking care of animals and garden, and other such activities.

Now I’m back to preparing for fall classes, and most especially anticipating his next visit to my “farmette,” so we can get back to our mutual fun. We did have fun during those few weeks, but most of our concentration was on his healing.

The next few days will be spent in catching up on reading all the blogs I subscribe to on Reader. I’m sure I’ve missed a lot with my absence. My SO sent me a lovely picture he found of a woman who’d had a handprint tattooed on her butt! So his mind seems to be back to normal! LOL I can’t say I’d go that far with tattooing, but it was an interesting concept!

PW - 'Kinky' is a relative concept.

Saturday Solitude

I never realize how quickly time is passing until I have a day of solitude, like today. This past week was the end of my teaching for the semester, graduation is next weekend, and my grades still need to be posted. But I’m taking a day off to catch up with myself and any readers I have.

My SO has been here just prior to leaving for his surgery. He seems to have been enjoying the straight-backed chair in our bedroom. It gives him the ability to get off his knee and still give me the effect of being over his lap. I end up mostly on the bed, with my bum up in the air for his convenience, while he sits on the chair with my legs draped over his lap. The spanking lasts a lot longer that way, yet we’re both fairly comfortable.

I got more spankings on this visit, probably because he knew he’d be gone longer this time until his leg heals from the surgery. I will fly to be with him for a few weeks during his recovery period, however.

When I have these days of solitude, I love the quiet and relish the alone time. It allows me to indulge in one of my favorite activities – fantasizing. My mind goes to a lot of different places when I fantasize, but the fantasies always end up in the same place. We all know where that is – what we fantasize about most.

SPANKING!

There is a lot that leads up to that moment in my fantasies. Sometimes it is simply a word of consternation, then quickly being pulled over his lap for a sound spanking. At other times, there is a slow build-up of anticipation. Once in a while, the fantasy is to be spanked by someone other than my SO while he watches approvingly. Or it may be that he has invited a friend over simply to witness my humiliating punishment.

Occasionally there is corner time, either before or after, or in mid-stream – always with red bottom exposed for his admiration and my erotic shame. I love/hate it when he pushes a small sliver of ginger into my anus after a hard spanking to hold while I wait in the corner for whatever is to come next.

He always senses my need to be child-like again, so his words to me are like those of a disappointed parent. Still I know he actually looks forward to the punishment that I am going to receive. Words that send a quiver up my gut are “Just wait until we get home, young lady,” or
“You’ve been acting like a naughty girl, so I’ll treat you like one,” or “What do you think I should do for the way you’ve been behaving?”

Even now, my insides are like jelly as I think about that. I think it’s time for a nap while I let today’s fantasy run its course.

PW - Be willing to say "Because I said so."

Grateful Tuesday - The Letter "L"

This letter “L” has almost too many things for which I’m grateful, but can we really be too grateful for too much??

These items all seem to come in groups, so that’s the way I’ll List them. And of course, I’m very grateful for Lists. I’ve been known to leave the grocery store and not buy one thing because I’d left my List somewhere!

I think it’s interesting that so many of the Loving words all begin with “L.” I’m grateful I have Labia to provide an adequate gate for my Lover’s Love. I am grateful for the ability to sit on his Lap, or go over his Lap, to feel a touch of the Leather, a gratitude that strengthens my Libido. I love Licking him or holding him with my Lips, especially when we’re both feeling full of Lust. Of course, we both like Lubrication!

So many beautiful flowers begin with “L” – Lavender, Lilacs, Lilies. In this category, I’ll include Leaves, wonderful at any time of the year.

Foods have their own grouping in the letter “L.” My imaginary Lunch would include Lobster or Lox, a bowl of Loquats, probably some Limeade or Lemonade, and for dessert a stick of Licorice, or a Lollipop.

Lately, I’ve been enjoying Lazy Sunday afternoons, just Lounging around and Listening to the birds and jazz, Looking at the mountains or Lake, and the acres of Lava that surround my Land. I’m grateful for times of Leisure to really enjoy these things.

I feel like I was granted an incredible amount of Luck in this world. Everything in my existence feels like Lagniappe. If you are familiar with New Orleans, you understand that word; if not, look it up!

Music includes its own gathering of “L” words – Lute (another instrument I play), Lyrics to Love songs and Lullabies.

I’m grateful for Lamps, so I can see to dig into the Literature of the Libraries of the world, to enjoy Linguistics, to read Letters, write Legends, and create silly Limericks.

My home, built of lovely Lumber, has a Lanai and a Loft, and special items made of Linen.

My favorite “L” animals include the big cats – Lions, Leopards, Lynx, and although not one of the "big cats," I love the Lambs. I’ve raised them for meat and fleece.

I’m a Liberal who enjoys her Liberty, who loves to dance around a Labyrinth with her Legs.
And finally, I am most grateful that one of my favorite cites of the world, London, is so diverse in its culture.

PW - A purple woman who is simply grateful for LIFE!

Grateful Tuesday - The Letter "K"

I’m late in posting this, but it’s still fairly early on Tuesday where I live! I missed last week, so I don’t want to let that happen again!

Kink – any kind and anywhere

Kisses – any kind and anywhere

Kama Sutra – for what it teaches us

Kabuki – Japanese theatre that I love

Koto – one of the instruments I play

Keyboard – another instrument I play

Karma – especially if it’s good karma

Keys – they open everything, including my heart

Knickers – my British lover likes to lower these

Kilts – my brother wears one of these

Kimchi – like a Korean sauerkraut and delicious

Knots – indispensable when I was sailing (and later found other uses)

Knowledge – a real turn-on when someone has lots of it

Kudos – we all need these, don’t we?

Kodiak – where I lived for several years and birthed one of my children

Kittens – playful and a constant source of laughter

Kidneys – especially healthy ones, because I recently had problems with mine

PW – thinking about kinky kisses and knickers

Happy Bunny Day!

I hope the Easter Bunny

brought everyone what

they want/deserve today!

card from www.naughtycards.com

Catching up!

I didn’t realize it has been ten days since I posted last! So much has happened in that period of time. My man did some catching up in the spanking arena! What a surprise, not to mention a definite turn on! He moved a straight-backed chair into the bedroom to make it more accessible for spontaneity. Was that man thinking ahead, or what??

So in all the excitement, I didn’t get to do grateful Tuesday for the letter “J,” so when Tuesday comes up next, my post may be a combination of “J” and “K.” There is just so much for which I am grateful!

No matter how satisfied I am, or how much fun we had while he was here, my need to have him around all the time is still extremely strong.

PW - The strong, dominant man makes my knees weak, sets my heart fluttering, and turns my insides to jelly.